Today was not so good. My anxiety was high.
Why you ask?
Your guess is as good as mine. I have no idea.
It started as any other day. Planning a picnic with my boyfriend. But then I talked to my mom about bills and money. Kind of a huge topic right now since I haven’t started my new job yet and I am super broke. So my anxiety spiked. Just being at home was bringing me high anxiety.
Probably because in just a day I am getting back out into the real world. I start my new job. Don’t get me wrong, I am super excited! I really think this is a job I can actually like and hopefully do well in! But just the thought of starting working again and being a functioning adult is super hard. In my almost 2 months off have I learned enough? Do I know enough about coping skills, deep breathing, mindfulness, CBT…. And even if I know enough am I strong enough to use them? Will they work for me? Or will I just have panic attacks and not use any of these skills and end up back to where I was? I just hope that I have finally found something that I will be happy doing and I wont have struggles and fears about going.
So my day wasn’t great but oh well! Just because I went through inpatient and outpatient therapy does that mean I am going to be happy, positive and joyful every single day?
I just need to remember that, THAT IS OK! I just need to push past and get through these bad days and know that I can overcome and that I am better and stronger than my anxiety! I can and I will win this battle with anxiety. I just need to remember that tomorrow is a new day and a new day gives me the opportunity to erase the high anxiety.
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